Why Can't I?

No matter what's going on in your life, I am a personal believer that you can make room for that emotion that converts your insides into acrobatic dancers. That emotion that turns you into pudding after sitting inside of a car, in the state of Georgia, in the middle of July.


That emotion that makes colors more vibrant and you smile at the sight of a word beginning with the first letter of their name. That emotion that wraps your entire body around the finger of some unsuspecting victim. Hah, chances are you're the victim. I usually am.
The emotion... that emotion.... you knnooow what I mean.

Why can't I throw myself into it? Because it isn't "safe", because "what if you get hurt", because "no one you knew ended up happy with someone else", because "it's bad timing", because "he's/she's a different race or religion", because "my parents don't approve"?? How about BECAUSE it's fucking worth it asses! You don't get something amazing and fully fulfilling without getting a little lost and taking chances. You don't get full arousal on sight, mental stimulation, complete comfort and infinite intrigue without taking a leap or taking a few wrong turns.
And, I mean, if you do/did find it easily, then I applaud you with sincere gratitude. It's special and rare. Kick it 'til your feet fall off.

April You Strike Again

Maybe I just have to think of it as, there's a growing arsenal of people on "the other side" looking out for me. Maybe..

The Academy Is.. will always remind me of you.

RIP Kimberly Madden

01-23-86 -- 04-15-11

Bitterness Tastes Bitter

So what is it? Does pride drive people or does fear?? What drives you? What makes you want to turn and run or quiver, or flinch?? Is it lonliness? Love? Commitment? Whatever-the-case, I bet it isn't a big enough reason to duck and run. So what you've been hurt or burned! So what someone in the past (it's the fucking past) screwed you over. Someone new shouldn't have to pay because YOU lost your ability to trust or whatever your stupid situation is. Get the fuck over it. Hurdle that little time piece you consider a memory and move on. I mean, shit! Don't you people recognize what's real anymore?! Or am I the only one... Ugh. Lennon was soo right.

"I Ran Up The 'Down' Escalators For You"

When my lips part for yours, and our eyes begin to shut. That's the moment I've been waiting for since the last time our mouths separated. Many moons and suns have rose and fallen since our eyes allowed themselves to lock and hold in a stare. A game of chicken between us two. Who will be victorious this time?

The steady gaze is intoxicating. Who needs tequila when you're around? Let's face it, I'm found out and I know it. Reluctant lips can't lie when my eyes are spilling the truth with every shutter of my lashes.

Slow motion through the crowd, following you out. Scared of the future, scared of the past. Scared of the inevitable and how long it'll last. Neither of us knows what it means or where it'll lead. Maybe right back to the beginning.

But without compliance, what do we really know?

Nothing.

Pride is such a buzz kill when it comes to the matters of the heart. And so are you.

Where Art Thou?

À l'heure la plus sombre, vous avez tendance à voir la lumière. Peu importe comment ennuyeux la lumière est, le fait de vaciller vous donne une forme d'espoir. Les films de roman ne devraient pas être dans ma possession, mais hélas ils sont. La couture de moi plus serré au désir de passion qui a été absente pour entièrement trop longtemps. Où sont vous ?

My Random Playlist Under 26 Songs

In no particular order. Just a mix that I threw together for the sake of Wednesday. And maybe a few that got left out, that deserve a chance. ;)

1. "Walkin & Swingin" --- Andy Kirk & His 12 Clouds Of Joy

2. "Smile Upon Me" --- Passion Pit

3. "Limelight" --- Rush

4. "Dig Up Her Bones" --- Misfits

5. "Attitude" --- Misfits

6. "Either Way" --- The Generationals

7. "A Girl Like You" --- Edwyn Collins

8. "Jenny" --- Stellastar**

9. "Wet Rainbow" --- Tipsy

10. "Crazy" --- Aerosmith

11. "Clavical" --- Alkaline Trio

12. "You've Got So Far To Go" --- Alkaline Trio

13. "Wild & Young" --- American Bang

14. "She Dominates" --- Blitzkid

15. "Teenage Necrophilian Love" --- Blitzkid

16. "This Modern Love" --- Bloc Party

17. "Stir It Up" --- Bob Marley

18. "Let Me Get What I Want" --- John Lennon

19. "There Is A Light" --- The Smiths

20. "Shake Me Down" --- Cage The Elephant

21. "Take Me Out" --- Atomic Tom

22. "Down, Set, Go" --- Underoath

23. "Heart Skipped A Beat" --- The xx

24. "Beat Your Heart Out" --- The Distillers

25. "Overkill" --- Collin Hay

The Almost in Under 10:

1. "For The Movies" --- Buckcherry

2. "Innocent" --- Fuel

3. "Hey Beautiful" --- The Solids

4. "Hang On Little Tomato" --- Pink Martini

5. "I'll Believe Anything" --- Wolf Parade

6. "Lua" --- Bright Eyes

7. "Elvis Fucking Christ" --- The Cramps

8. "Can't Hardly Wait" --- The Replacements

9. "Party Pit" --- The Hold Steady

10. "Jackass" --- Beck

Ut Oh

what the hell does it all mean?